Days of My Life

I had a marathon chatting session with a dear friend in the wee hours of this morning. We laughed, I faux cried. It was GREAT!!!

We’ve known each other for less than a year through a common acquaintance whom we both love. Although we don’t have a lot of histo

WAIT!! A BIRD JUST FLEW INTO MY WINDOW! I FEEL BAD FOR HIM.

As I was saying, although we don’t have a lot of history, some people are just kindred spirits–I love that term from Anne of Green Gables. He and his wife are two sweet people. I almost forgot my point.

I very rarely have linear conversations because I’m not a linear thinker. I know that my communication style can annoy some people because it seems like I’m all over the place, shifting quickly from one topic to another, talking all over people. Guilty as charged. My mind just moves so fast sometimes it’s all I can do to keep up with my own self. I can’t get my words to come fast enough for my processing. Some people can’t keep up with that, and only a kindred spirit can also do that. This dude is like that. He and his folks have nooo problem keeping up. I LOVE it!! I know how to slow it down because I know how annoying I am, but I love it when I have the freedom just to be myself, and a part of that is talking like the roadrunner when I’m intellectually stimulated. The flip side is that I treat my words like gems and only use them around people I 1) like, 2) know, and 3) am extremely comfortable around. Otherwise, I’m silent and just smile (or not).

My whole point is that when you have people in your life who don’t stress you it is a blessing. I am one tough cookie to befriend, but I’m worth it. I’m polite, civil, and friendly to many, but not everyone do I call friend. I can only be friends with people who embrace the truth because that is one thing that I dish and appreciate in return.

Anyway, I’ve been contemplating major life changes. My friend, Mr. Conscious Giggler (CG), assured me that God has a plan, and I’m right in it. I know he’s right. I feel it. I was going to say (as I now say it) that not having road signs along the way makes knowing over feeling very difficult, but CG is a road sign of confirmation. If I equate seeing with knowing, then I’m really just talking about a lack of faith because faith is just a feeling of knowing beyond the shadow of a doubt without ever seeing. I like that. You’d better quote me if you use it, too. I ain’t playin’ with you.

The road sign above is how my life often feels, but the real signs are much simpler and far clearer, like “STOP,” “YIELD,” “CAUTION,” and “MERGE.” If I always went by how I felt, I wouldn’t be here. Thank God for the feeling that is knowing beyond a shadow of the doubt that overtakes the feeling that is rooted and grounded only in doubt. Thank God for relationship (with Him that is).

I know I have rambled my way all the way to my point, but this is the place where I can do that. My “serious” writing occupies another space, and this is just my place to vent and put things into perspective for myself. If my perspective blesses you, Praise God!! If not, you’ve got the right to move on. Ain’t no chains holding you here, but at the end of the day, if I can help somebody as I travel along, then my living shall not be in vain.

The End of the most random post ever, second only to the random musings of Mama Dragon and Fly with Soul.