I’ve been away from here so long, I’ve begun to wonder if this is still where I need to be. I come up with topics all the time, but lose interest by the time I have a chance to write them.
I’ve been considering that perhaps a real anonymous spot would be nice so I can really get some things off my chest. I just need space to clear my thoughts sometimes without fear of being judged because honestly, I DO care what some people think.
Perhaps I shall leave this decision for another day. I’m allowed. After all, this year is all about me taking care of me instead of everyone else. I only have to determine what is best for me to make this decision. I think I’ll take some time to do that and then let the cyber world know if it’s time to move on. Working three jobs, I owe it to myself to at least be able to spend as much time in thought as I want before I make decisions.
I am really excited about this year. I’m anticipating all the joy that it is poised to bring as I’ve finally decided to let someone love me on his own terms. Just watching from outside myself gives great perspective on what is slowly becoming one of the greatest love stories ever told, complete with patience, sacrifice, friendship, and mutual respect and concern. It may be interesting just to keep my imaginary readers posted as things develop. Who knows? Maybe, for a little while longer, I’ll stick around.
NLC